My Father’s Sleep Was Never a Blueprint
I come back to this machinery, this dark cologned compartment, I come back to wool sport jacket rickety door and silver watch. I put out my hand into the breath you keep taking back stubborn with your eyes shut like caves no one knows are there. The corridor you’d pass me in, the corridor where you were tired. Comes back the wall-to-wall carpeting that took our steps, absorbed our weight, made us all beige in that house, lulled possibility into drywall; the joists between floors noticed something pressing down. The timber I come back to from 1910, a derailed past, where rain gets in sometimes, turns its entrance yellow, turns our eyes to it; we try everything to keep it out.